Lovely. Have you ever been so depressed that you could not motivate yourself to do what you knew you had to do? And its “Thanksgiving” and you want to make the drive to see your aging parent and very ill sister because its the tribulation and there might not be another year for us yet you are constantly admonished to “pack the truck”, a rather large one considering its just me.
That has been my reality for a few days – totally unmotivated to pack up and leave my boys but driven to do so by another person. Relentless “load the truck” and the nagging desire to self-terminate just to share my state-of-mind. But not.
Yet Yahuah has blessed me tremendously. My status of “divorced” came literally four days after I prayed to Yahuah to end it three years ago. Fifteen years of a cruelly manipulative marriage had just about ruined me, and my prayers changed from preserving our marriage to ending it. And I am very specific about the time frame. One Monday I asked for Him to end it, and four days later I was served with divorce papers. Clearly Yahuah set me free. Yet I came back after a year when she asked me to because my children are here. I spent a year living in a rather gross situation (at the other end of the house) and now on Thanksgiving, I am thankful to be leaving forever.
As many of you have asked, the vision I had regarding a wife was real. It started out extremely stressful for me. Two months of begging God to give her a dream or something, but no. I had to go to a woman I did not know and tell her that she was the focal point of a vision I had regarding a prayer for a wife.
Try that in your church 🙂
WOW. That was one of the most stressful times of my life, shaking and trembling and stuttering and stammering and pleading with God to put some of the burden on her. But He told me that the responsibility was mine and that He wanted me to carry the ball.
The whole thing was about faith. I faithfully executed to the best of my ability for weeks. I walked the walk. Spoke Truth. Kept the faith and continually adhered to trust and obedience. But the exercise hit a significant snag on the very day that we had the first, only and best date ever. Beautiful, funny, fun, hours long of great conversation and gladness. Then boom.
No comment on the boom other than to say this: I do not think it is finished. Two reasons. First reason is that Yahuah has plenty of time and is not silly or ignorant. He knows what He is doing and my job is to be faithful. Second: A song runs through my mind every day of my life now. I do not know the lyrics, the name of or the creator of this song. I know about eight words and those are in my head every day and have been since boom.
She sang this song, which is why it is in my head, like a reminder of something good.
Therefore, I continue to plan and to do things necessary to proceed. For example, and significantly, I got a new job that includes a 60 percent increase in pay. Sixty-percent is a big increase, which I need. And after that, I interviewed for a different position within a different company and that position is stellar. A job I have wanted for years, and I do mean stellar.
These moves were discussed by myself and the woman in the vision. She was aware of them as a possibility, and since boom I have secured the first upgrade and am poised to secure the major upgrade next week. I interviewed for 1.5 hours with the Vice President of said company and he and I get along famously. He is a rare and blessed man whom I will love working with. One more interview and then I believe we will have a “go”.
And the best part is this: If I never have a wife or if the woman in the vision is never part of my life, I still have the benefits and blessings of my merciful Father. Why? Because of faith and obedience. I did what He asked me to do every time, and now I am reaping the harvest of my faith. In fact, Yahuah could have given me the toughest assignment I have ever had not to get me “married up”, but to simply prove His love for me.
So this Thanksgiving I’m rather pumped. Dating and all that stuff is really exhausting. Making money is fun. Denise is probably right. If you have not read some of Denise’s comments, she is a very wise woman who offered me some sage advice. “Don’t do it” 🙂 And I’m laughing but her reasoning was so excellent that I would be an idiot to ignore her.
The vision did not instruct me to marry, not did it instruct the woman to marry. The vision of her was simply His pointing at the woman who met the standards of my plea. A high compliment to her from her maker, for sure.
But I was blessed hugely. It was really a powerful experience and I am more than grateful for it. My life is brighter than ever and I look forward to much more writing. I have great friends who seek and serve the Truth, and we have a tidy war with satan to fight.
So let’s get to that business, shall we?
I love ya Jerry!! I think you should get a dog!!! Best companion EVER!!! May the new year bring you joy and happiness!!
lol. Thanks, Dawn. Dogs are very faithful, yes. But not as interesting.
Jerry, I’m so honored that you mentioned me in your post! I know you will be okay because of who you love, HE will always take care of you! You are dedicated and obedient, and I am blessed to be your friend. Congrats on the new job with the 60% pay increase!
Blessed is the man who walks not in the counsel of the ungodly, nor stands in the way of sinners, nor sits in the seat of the scornful. But his delight is in the law of the Lord!
Thank you, Denise. Your words were simply too wise to pass up. I appreciate you caring enough to lay some “hard truth” on me. And I have peace in all of this, too. I am still pondering His purpose for the whole vision/relationship thing, but one purpose of it was for me to have faith in His actions, regardless of my discomfort. That was cool. Plus, it was imperative that I share the vision with the individual imaged in that vision. The longer I put it off (about nine weeks), the more difficult life became. When I finally agreed to share it immediately, the trembling and stuttering went away. That indicates to me that He has a purpose in the sharing. Faith, belief, obedience, all are part of this. And He has rewarded my strongly in other areas. Really beneficial blessings. Also, there is certainly more fruit to be born from this. He has put some light on a couple of critical issues.
Brother Jerry, from another Jerry, and another mother… Prayers for your strength, faithfulness, and obedience…and I can relate. Thank you for serving our Father YAHUAH and Messiah YAHUSHA…
Thanks for the love, brother. There are lots of fine followers of the Way here. True Natsarim. The Elect, feared by the dragon.
🙂🙂🙂, you make me think. I believe what you say about the Law. Its pertinent and its right now. It is, obedience.
You are in my thoughts and prayers Jerry….May Yahuah bless you!
Regards
Brendon N
Thanks, Brendon. I am hopeful and expectant. If anyone can complain, it is the people of Australia. The shame is that the American government will not come to the aid of the Australian people. Damn the government of America. Pawns of Satan. Liars. Adulterers. Pig eaters. Baby killers.
Glad you are blessed and walking the way of Yahshua.
On this level of reality we can let the Father guide us to eat our viatmin
B complex, Pray about it and embrace life .
Man up Buttercup as when the going gets tough the tough get going.
Love, hai, Peace & Shalom
“Man up buttercup” – you have such a gentle way about you, Enoch 🙂 Thanks. Made me laugh.
Thank You Dr. Pidgeon – Just tried to find you on YouTube, notice says “This channel has no content” – you’ve got tons of content, they just don’t like it. Almost all folks I like have been taken down. Love ya Doc.
Happy Thanksgiving Jerry.
The way to be truly happy is to be truly human,
and the way to be truly human is to be truly godly.
–J.I. Packer
Psalm 30:5 For His anger is but for a moment,
His favor is for life; weeping may endure for a night,
but joy comes in the morning.
I love reading your posts.
May YAHUAH provide the best for you as you have given Him your best in YAHUSHA.
Shalom and greetings from Friesland.
Thank you, sister. Your words are kind and comforting.
Praying for you brother.