Faith, Baby!

As many of you know, I spent the last five weeks in a worst-case world. It involved several of my emotions, and those at the maximum level of performance. Anger, fear and love were all at the boiling point. It was truly terrible.. Sometimes I could only shiver, my whole body literally shaking in these small amplitude tremors, from my neck to my toes.

That is odd, actually. Have you ever experienced that?

But something wonderful happened. I was able to let go of all of it. Yes, it was still quite difficult, quite stressful, uncertain, hostile, sad… but I had a dream 15 years ago, and in that dream there were three little boys walking down a sidewalk in front of a house that was alone on that street. The trees were tall and evergreen, and there was a waterfall in the woods across from the house. A mountainous area, I suppose.

I drove first into the woods for no reason other than curiosity. Nice waterfall, and exit the forest road back onto the road.

Suddenly a rainstorm of biblical proportions struck. My truck was spinning wildly in the storm, and all I could see through the wind shield was water spattering onto it. Nothing but water and wild wind. I wrestled the steering wheel, trying to control my vehicle until a voice within me said “Let go.”

I let go, and instantly the storm stopped, as if it never were. And there in front of me were those three boys.

I knew that they were mine, although at the time I was not married and had no sons.

But I do now, and my sons are the same ages and sizes as the three in the dream. Exactly, down to the hair color and body build. They wore backpacks with earbud wires hanging out, tennis shoes, blue jeans, jackets and caps. The smallest one was in front – and I got to see him from the side. The smallest boy in the dream was identical to my 4 yr old son, Nate.

The point of the dream was this: We must learn to let go, and embrace the love and mercy of Yahuah. Particularly His mercy, which we often forget.

This storm that I just endured is the climax of that dream. The storm began before my first son was born, and lasted until yesterday. 14 years. Terrible storm. Ended.

It ended well. It ended well because of this: I believe that my Father loves me and has the best in mind for me. I believe whatever happens to me is for my good. Therefore, in the climax of the storm, I asked Yahuah to help me believe that, regardless of the outcome, it is His blessing to me and that I be grateful for that outcome.

That is what He did.

I am a fighter. I do love battle. I am aggressive, skilled in multiple forms of combat, and just as Daud cut off the head of the giant, so do I finish my opponents – decisively and and with prejudice.

But Yahuah restricts me in those things, and I am glad. Nonetheless, in this storm that passed, I had not yet begun to fight when it ended. Yes, I was engaged in the conflict but I had not even entered my powerband when it was over. Finished.

And that is where I had to let go. I could not continue the fight, and my primary weapons remained undeployed.

Disappointing, but the Will of Yahuah is merciful, and for His mercy I am exceedingly glad.

So today, the first day after the end of the storm, I find that my heart is light. Joy resides in me. Gladness exudes from me. I have peace, and real peace, for the first time in years.

Next time you face a difficult trial, let it go. Trust that Yahuah actually loves you, and that He is actually merciful and not a liar. Trust that, no matter what the outcome, He has the best in mind for you and nothing can overcome that. Nothing does overcome His Will, but I have learned from experience that we personally have outcomes and objectives that we personally want, and if we are stopped by some other person or thing, we get angry, frustrated and start praying “oh god, please help me achieve/obtain/get/win/escape/insert-verb-here”.

Well, if its not His Will, you will not receive it. So we must believe in our FAITH. Faith is exhibited by OBEDIENCE. Obedience means yes, we TRUST that HE LOVES us and is MERCIFUL.

Therefore, because Yahuah wants good for us, He will steer us toward GOOD, and we will get there IFwe DO NOT resist whatever He is doing by demanding that we want what we want. You know, forcing the situation. Being angry and then sinning in your anger by operating outside of TRUST, FAITH, LOVE and MERCY to and from GOD.

In all of our conflicts throughout life, He is with you if you are His child. He steers us and guides us but most of the time we simply demand whatsoever we demand, operating outside of His desire for us.

If you have lived long enough, you realized long ago that you create nearly all of your own problems.

Now you know why 🙂

Daddy loves you. Don’t argue with Him and do trust that He keeps His Word. That trust is obedience and it is credited to you as RIGHTEOUSNESS, which is very important for the outcome of your battles.

 

Psalm 142 – I lift up my voice to the Lord for mercy.

I am going through a time of sorrows, and am asking for prayers from you.  There are times like these in the lives of many, when despair and hopelessness swallow up our souls, leaving us hungry for the mercy of death.  The long sleep until resurrection; the ascension to glory and to true peace.

But our appointed time will come on schedule, and we are called to walk in the Way regardless of any obstacle, or sorrow.  In our obedience, hope rises.  In obedience, righteousness gains possession of our heart.  In our righteousness, weak though we are, courage grows.  We know that even though we are dying inside, that Yahuah is with us, that He sent His Spirit to dwell within us and to teach us.

It is the literal indwelling of the spirit of Yahuah that keeps us vibrant and alive in the darkest of times.  Death has no dominion over us, nor does despair.

Yes, we will have minutes or hours or days of terrible gloom or despair.  Those things do come to all, but when we call out to Yahuah, He hears us.  The most incredible thing is that He does not relieve us of all these trials, but that He walks with us, comforts us through the trials, and emerges into the rich victory of joy at the end of the trial.

These most dreadful of times come to each of us, and even if we have to walk in the shadow of death for a long time, when we maintain our faith, we emerge both victorious and much stronger.

The psalm of Daud ( “David” for most folks 🙂 ) below perfectly sums up my state of mind.  I experience despair, encouragement, yearning for death, sadness, confidence and assurance all multiple times in the same day.  Sometimes I cannot breathe due to the immense pressure I feel on me.

Yet Yahuah holds me up.  In fact, I do know that, because of His spirit living inside me, I can endure all things.  If He takes everything from me, then all the more I will  be able to serve His Word.  And maybe that is His plan – to strip me of everything so that I might be fully His.  Certainly I owe it to Him.  And what a price to pay for the privilege of service!

Remember whan Daud said about paying a high price to worship Yahuah?

1 Chronicles 21:24
“No,” replied King David, “I insist on paying the full price, for I will not take for the LORD what belongs to you or offer burnt offerings that cost me nothing.”

A high price paid is an honorable and worthy fee for the privilege of serving Him unencumbered, and in peace.  All things in this world are transient and fleeting.  We all struggle to work out our salvation, and, as Solomon teaches in 7:28, exceedingly few are upright.

Will it be worth it?  Absolutely, for our treasure is not in this world, but in Heaven.  There is no greater call on earth among men than the call to serve Yahuah with all heart, all mind and all soul.

And now, my brother Daud speaks –

“I cry aloud to the Lord;
I lift up my voice to the Lord for mercy.
2 I pour out before him my complaint;
before him I tell my trouble.
3 When my spirit grows faint within me,
it is you who watch over my way.
In the path where I walk
people have hidden a snare for me.
4 Look and see, there is no one at my right hand;
no one is concerned for me.
I have no refuge;
no one cares for my life.
5 I cry to you, Lord;
I say, “You are my refuge,
my portion in the land of the living.”
6 Listen to my cry,
for I am in desperate need;
rescue me from those who pursue me,
for they are too strong for me.
7 Set me free from my prison,
that I may praise your name.
Then the righteous will gather about me
because of your goodness to me.

Loving Puts A Shine On Your Soul

Remember when you first started using email, and sometimes you would hit the SEND key before you edited your fresh composition?  Or maybe you wrote a real payback-is-hell email to your boss or wife or husband or friend, and it was mostly an exercise of “Oh I wish I could send this”, and you sent it?

I did that two minutes ago.

Not an email but a posting that went out to a whole bunch of subscribers.  It is a piece about fidelity, respect, obedience from wives to husbands.  I have some wonderful women who subscribe to me and I do try to be sensitive to “feelings”.

Nonetheless, Yahuah is no respector of persons, so neither should we be.  And wrong is wrong.  Sin is sin and we all need to love more faithfully.

I’d like to speak to Mr., now.  Husband, father, son – the man.  Commanded to love his wife repeatedly by Yahuah, what does that tell us about men?

That we need to be reminded a lot?  That it is a command and not an option?  Sure, yes, all of that.  But the main takeaway from all those “Thou shalt love..” is this: Love is a decision.

Men choose to love or not to love.  We don’t get a “feeling”, and it isn’t chemistry.  It is a decision, like whether or not to mow the lawn, wash the dog, read the Word or take a shower.  Love is the end result of “I will”.

I like that.

Choosing to love can be a very difficult choice.  Loving an unloveble woman can be quite difficult, as one might imagine.  Unlovable means just that: not lovable.  Some women make it extremely difficult for a man to love them, and then they wonder why they are not loved.

Make it easier to love you, ladies.  If you need some pointers, read this.

A disrespectful wife is the most difficult woman to love, brother.  They are contemptous, loud, bossy, arrogant, deceitful and in general not worth having around.

Proverbs speaks to this several times, citing the fact that it is better to live in the corner of a roof than in a fine home with a contentious woman.  Or that it is better to have a little bit in peace than a lot of stuff in strife.

That said, if you are married, and if your wife does all that stuff and you are miserable, guess what?  Yahuah never promised you a rose garden.  He never said you would have Miss Manners for a wife, or that your wife would not be a closet man-hater.  You married her and now you get to start the long march.

But you can do it.

Love is simply love.  It is not slavery, or some way to break your will.  You can love your wife very deeply but never do the fawning roses and chocolates and the “yes, dears” and the “doing whatever she wants because that what she wants to do” thing.

You can love her just fine while watching the Superbowl with a room full of friends.

You can love her just fine while her mother complains about you behind your back, and your wife says “mommy, you are so smart”.  Faithful wives are hard to come by.

But you can still love her, and love her deeply.

Love does not require you to check your self-respect at the door.  You still get to be all the man that you can muster.  Maintain your self-respect, maintain your dignity.  Do things that you know are good for you, and help your wife when she needs help.  If she asks for help, help her.  Be polite to her.  Treat her with respect because when you are disrespectful to anyone, you are disrespectful to yourself.

When she does things that confound you with illogical thought processes, love her anyway.  Let it go.  It is not love to go about correcting and perfecting her.  She gets to live her life, in large part, as she see’s fit.  As long is she plays within the parameters of the Word, she is good to go.  Let her roll her way.  Don’t be afraid that, if she does some things her way, that you will be less a man.

A strong man will give his wife all the latitude she needs.  Unless it is sin, encourage her in her endeavors.  That is love.

You can try a good many things to build your relationship with her, but again, if she is a modern man-hating type of woman, then she certainly is not easy to love.

Just as some men are simply wicked, dead soul types, selfish to the core and interested only in their own personal comfort, many women are exactly the same.  You might be married to one and guess what?  She just might burn in hell for her rejection of Yahuah, and you might be married to her until the day one of you dies.

If that is your situation, you can still love her.  She might complain first thing every morning and throughout the day for the remaining 90,000+ days of her bitter life, and that might be one of the most profound blessings you will receive from Yahuah.

If this is your life, rejoice because you get to submit to Yahuah out of respect to Him.  He says “love”, she says “beat it” and there you are, torn between your desire to honor Yahuah or to call down sulfur upon your once-upon-a-time-a-long-time-ago delightful bride.

But He is watching.

He is mindful of your desire to obey Him.  He knows that you want to love her as He commands, and He does see everything you do.  Keep it up.  Live your life.  Offer to read the Word with her.  Keep that door open, always.  Yes, it might be like studying the Word with Louis Farrakhan, but the Word will do its job, and in time, if she is willing, her heart will open.

Some women have been deeply hurt by men.  So badly wounded that they are unable to trust even their husband.  They marry, hoping that their love or fondness or whatever is running through their mind for the guy they marry will transform them/her into the happy, trusting girl that she was before evil came.

That’s where you can be a real blessing to her, because although you might never know about her wound, if you can win her trust, you can win her heart.

You win that trust by loving, and it is a richly sacrificial love that you bring to the table, too.  You are going to take some licks from her as she tests you.  She wants to know where your breaking point is because she is looking for that moment where she can say “Aha!  You are all the same”.

But if you love her, your desire is Yahuah and not her.  She will find you very hard to antagonize.

There are no guarantees except for this one: If you choose to love her in spite of her utter disdain for gracefulness and respect to you, you will become a better man.  You are not some door mat or whipping post.  No need to argue or even have discussions with an overtly hostile woman.  Pointless.  Do love, do help, but go about your life taking care of your business, biding your time, and waiting for Yahuah.

He’s patient with us, and we are the most faithless creatures he made.

 

Love: The Best And Most Difficult Choice.

Through a glass, darkly.  That is how the best of us live, seeing our lives through the Holy Spirit (if saved and having turned from our disobedience to obedience) and filtering the truth through our human minds and emotions.

Until we are free from our physical, dirt-centric human vessels, we must endure the imperfect understanding we live with now.  As human beings, we can never walk as we will walk with Him in the next.

So we march along, sometimes smug in our status, sometimes shamed by our sin, always dealing with the contrast between our dirt foundation and the righteous perfect love made manifest by the Holy Spirit, who dwells within those who love Yahusha and obey His commands.

Like shape-shifting “aliens” (demons) with a broken “shift shape now” feature, we shift in appearance from darkness to light like a chameleon that changes colors from green to gray to brown to mottled black.  Not as the mood strikes per se, but as selfishness, lust, greed, hatred, judgement  and every other evil spirit taunts and tempts us.

Disobedience is is built-in.  Did you know that?  Yes it is.  We are genetically hard-wired to disobey Yahuah, and Paul instructs that if we live according to the flesh, we are going to die.  The flesh has a weakness in it, or a propensity to declare itself “god”.  We all deal with it.

“Rom 8:13  for if you live according to flesh, you are going to die. But if by the Spirit you put to death the practices of the body, you will live.

Further – Rom 8:3  For the Law being powerless, in that it was weak through the flesh, God sending His own Son in the likeness of sinful flesh, and concerning sin, condemned sin in the flesh,

Sin, then, is part of our physical makeup.  Its built in, I suppose.  Not by Yahuah but by a 1000 generations of disobedience.  But then, Adam and Eve disobeyed His command, and they were made without sin until they chose to disobey Him.  Interesting and I am off topic.

Bear in mind that the adversary stood in front if Yahusha Himself and tempted Him.  If he can stand before Yahusha, he can and will seek to own you, too.  Be mindful.

We live in a dwelling of dirt, but soon we will live in the light.  That day is coming, and most of us will walk the earth until the moment the change comes.  We will see it.  We will watch it born in this world.  You, me, our children – the hour is descending upon mankind like the light of the orbiting sun brings glory to the morning.

In my life I have done almost every evil thing.  I have hated, lusted, lied, been bitter, resentful, jealous, envied, drunk with hatred for the good.  Although the difference between that man and this one is immeasurable, still I wear this dirt.

My journey into the Word that began a year or two ago, taking me through Torah and the understanding that Yahuah deeply loves those who hold to His commands has taught me that obedience to Him is impossible.

Not that His standards are unreachable.  In fact, we can easily comply with all of His instructions.  The problem is that we don’t really want to comply.  The fault, you see, is ours.

1Jn 4:8  The one who does not love has not known God, because God is love.

The greatest command, the one that truly defines our worship, is love.  If we do not love those who are most wicked, we completely miss the message of Yahusha.  It is easy to love people who love us.  In fact, loving people who love us makes every day like the Sabbath day – restful, easy, comfortable and sweet.

Loving the people who hate us, who spitefully use us, looking out for their best interest, serving them with kindness – this is our calling.  This is who we are to be, glorifying Lord and Son Yahusha.  He was always merciful, even when he wrecked the money changers in the Temple.  He fulfilled before them the prophecy that the coming Meshiach would be filled with zeal for the Temple.

(7) Because for Your sake I have borne reproach; Dishonor has covered my face. (8) I have become estranged from my brothers and an alien to my mother’s sons. (9) For zeal for Your house has consumed me, And the reproaches of those who reproach You have fallen on me.

When we are called by Yahuah, we are called to life, but that path to life runs straight through the valley of the shadow of death.  We are called to walk through this darkness, though filled with the good light of Yahuah.  And we walk that path of sorrows in our dirt suit.  Truly we are pitiful creatures if there is no Savior, foolishly loving the haters and encouraging others to love those who persecute them.  What fools we are if there is no Truth.

But I see the Truth.  I see Him now.  I see Him in the face of my children, I hear Him in their voices, in their laughter.  I see Him in the warm light of the morning sun, which rises directly through the window in front of me.  His Word speaks calmly and wisely to my spirit.  The more I learn, the more I desire to learn.

There is no end to the Word of Truth.  The Word of Truth is like an infinite number of truths, all of them connected to all of them.  Imagine one scripture that you read and understand.  Then, later you understand another scripture, and in your understanding of it, you realize that it is directly connected to the scripture you previously understood.

You continue to read, and you gradually understand more and more, and reading for months and years, you see that all scripture is connected to all scripture, that more connections are established as you read more and more, until if the scriptures were mere points in space, they would connect into a solid sphere of light, with no part of that lattice of connectedness unlit by the pathways connecting the Words.

This is the Living Truth – a light unto the World, giving life to all who pursue it.  In it there is no darkness at all.

Love, then, is the key to life.  That is my calling, and yours if you follow Him.  Yahusha had the power and the authority to do whatsoever he liked in the face of satan and his servants.  They are wicked beasts of human beings, those who reject Yahusha.  Some quite likely in your life, perhaps in your own family.

Turn your face from them.  Face Yahusha, and let Him be the light that shines from within you.  Love those wicked haters who spitefully use you.  Though it might seem impossible to conceive of a way to do so, yet Yahusha knows exactly the path whereby His love can connect to the wicked, calling them into the very light of The Truth, connecting them to Him, to you, and to every man and woman who is His.

Just as Yahusha said “I and the Father are one”, so are we one with Him when we love the loveless in His name.

Life in the Spirit
Rom 8:1  There is therefore now no condemnation to those in Christ Jesus, who do not walk according to flesh, but according to Spirit.
Rom 8:2  For the Law of the Spirit of life in Christ Jesus set me free from the law of sin and of death. (like the “law” of gravity, sin [disobedience to Torah] leads to death. – “(KJV) Whosoever committeth sin transgresseth also the law: for sin is the transgression of the law. i John 3:4 – jd)
Rom 8:3  For the Law being powerless, in that it was weak through the flesh (we don’t want to obey), Yahuah, sending His own Son in the likeness of sinful flesh, and concerning sin, condemned sin in the flesh,
Rom 8:4  so that the righteous demand of the Law might be fulfilled in us, those not walking according to flesh, but according to Spirit.
Rom 8:5  For the ones that are according to flesh mind the things of the flesh. And the ones according to Spirit mind the things of the Spirit.
Rom 8:6  For the mind of the flesh is death, but the mind of the Spirit is life and peace;
Rom 8:7  because the mind of the flesh is enmity towards God; for it is not being subjected to the Law of God, for neither can it be.
Rom 8:8  And those being in the flesh are not able to please God.
Rom 8:9  But you are not in flesh, but in Spirit, since the Spirit of God dwells in you. But if anyone has not the Spirit of Christ, this one is not His.
Rom 8:10  But if Christ is in you, the body indeed is dead because of sin, but the Spirit is life because of righteousness.
Rom 8:11  But if the Spirit of the One having raised Jesus from the dead dwells in you, the One having raised the Christ from the dead will also make your mortal bodies live through the indwelling of His Spirit in you.

Willful Ignorance Is Rebellion – Especially In The Pulpit Of Christian Churches

My family and I went to a typical “Christian” church this past Sun day, (linked to pagan origins of the whole “Sun Day idolatry) and I saw several people there that I am acquainted with.  It was good to see them.  The Pastor there is also an acquaintance, and I have always liked him quite a bit as a person.  Before I was summoned by the Holy Spirit to Torah, I even loved his preaching 🙂

He preached a sermon that was remarkable for its fantasy-weaving attributes, especially for the statement he made near the end, when he said “The love of God (he means Yahuah, not Moloch or ISIS, or Baphomet, etc) is ‘”unconditional”, and that there are no “performance requirements” from the God he promotes.

Here is the audio excerpt of him making the statement.

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If The Law Does Not Apply To You…

I met with a fine Christian brother recently, a Pastor, and we had a powerful conversation regarding who is “Israel”, and who is expected to obey the commands of Yahuah.

He does not believe that non-Jews are called to obey the commands of Yahuah, stating that all of those laws are “for the Jews”.  That Israel is “Jew only” might be more accurate.

If he is correct in that non-Jews are free from the Law, then for us, sin is impossible.  Yippee!  It is impossible to sin without the Law, because sin is transgression of the law (1 John3:4).  And if a gentile cannot sin because gentiles are not required to obey Yahuah, then we can fornicate all we want, right, Pastor?  And homosexualism, even in the Pastorate, is OK-fine, right?  Because if gentiles are free from obedience to the commands of Yahuah, we don’t even need salvation, since “sin” will apply only to the Jews, Pastor.

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The Law: What Is It? Where Do I find It? How Do I Obey It?

How To Study The Instructions Of Yahuah – It Is Only Difficult When We Personally Make It Difficult

When one is new to Torah observance, one can find oneself at a loss regarding “Where to start”. Its funny that Yahuah left us His “Instructions” or “Words” (mistransliterated as “Law”), without a “Start Here” button to click.

So one will ask friends, search the interweb, read various sections of Torah and generally attempt to piece together a process of study. One thing for sure you will learn, as did I, is this: Obedience is easy until we make it difficult ourselves.  It is our selfish flesh that makes obedience difficult, every time.

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Do You Think You Know What Sin Is?


Sitting in Sunday School this morning, our teacher asked everyone to turn to 1st John, chapter three, verse four.  I love this scripture, as it defines what sin is.  Let me ask you, before you go further, what is sin?

Its clearly defined for us.  My Pastor said “We should believe what Jesus says about the Word of God”., and he is right.  My Pastor also said “When we contradict Yahweh, we blaspheme Him”, which is also true.

So what is sin, brothers?

Most people in your church, including you, likely do not know.  Our Pastors teach continually the necessity of “not sinning”.  We all know sin = bad.  We all know we are sinners, yet as Paul said, we do continually obey our flesh and deny our minds, ultimately we sin.  But sin can be avoided, because Yahuah tells us plainly each sin.  In writing.

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