Let The Christians Go

I have not posted much lately, mostly because my life has been rapidly evolving and I lacked the focus to share any meaningful information.  In the last 90 days, my wife divorced me, my oldest and dearest friend died without bothering to even let me know he was sick, and I walked out of my Christian church convinced that there is no good going to come from my fellowship with the members there.

The Divorce

I have been in a serious bind maritally for many years.  Although I loved my wife, there were several important issues that had made life together extremely difficult for many years.  I prayed for YEARS for Yahuah to resolve them, and finally, this year, I began to pray that He would provide a definitive conclusion to our problems.

He did.

While driving my car one evening, I noticed that a car was following me through traffic on a congested Interstate highway.  That car followed me everywhere I went, and, phoning my wife, I mentioned that to her.  She had taken the kids out of town that day and I wanted to make sure that they all got to her destination safely.  When I mentioned the pursuit vehicle, she replied “He’s probably trying to serve you divorce papers.  I filed for divorce today.”

My children heard that, too, as they were in the van with her.

After we concluded the call, I simply raised my face to heaven and said “Thank You God.”

The divorce was stressful.  I could not afford a good attorney, and rather than trot in some low-end pro bono lawyer, I represented myself.  In the end, things went very well.  Her attorney commented to me that this divorce was the most calm, easy and remarkably smooth divorce she had ever been a part of.

It was smooth, for sure, although the judge didn’t listen very well.

My prayer was that Yahuah would let me be satisfied with whatever outcome came from it.  My goal was to end this thing in a state of graceful gratitude, believing that His Will was done and that He loves me.

It was so.

My former wife and I still talk, nearly every day.  She calls and invites me to do things, and she cooks for me sometimes.  Ours is a respectful relationship and I must say that life is good.  Last Sunday she texted and asked me if I wanted to take a drive that day.  Sounded good to me, and we went on a long one to a popular small town and walked around, shopping and eating.  It was a wonderful time.  A couple of days later (two days ago) she called me and invited me over for steaks and Monopoly.  Hard to say no to that, and again, a blessed time.

Interestingly, I have zero interest in “finding another woman”.  I don’t know what the future holds, but I’m proud of her composure and behavior.

My Son Is Assaulted At School

Yesterday, I had to go visit with the police at my oldest son’s middle school. He is 13 years old, and a genuine prince; a truly beautiful child.  A gang of bigger boys beat him up, and I was furious.  My former wife went with me, and she presented details to the police that I was unaware of.  When were concluded the meeting, I left feeling that justice just might be served.  The main antagonist is a boy that has spent the night at my house, eaten my food and was invited to do things with my sons and I.  He violently attacked my son, who is smaller than everyone on that gang of seven.  A second attacker also jumped on my son and grabbed him by the throat to choke him, all in the hallway of their school.

There were several witnesses, and my son was attacked from behind by a boy already on probation for breaking into a church building and vandalizing it.

Luke was injured, and we took him out of school for the remainder of this school year, which ends in about nine more school days.  He will be fine when his knees heal.  The investigation is not complete but I expect to file assault charges against both.

Death of My Friend

My friends name was Lane Alton McCarty.  He and I met at church camp when we were 13 years old.  In fact, we met in a GANG FIGHT at church camp 🙂  He was on the opposing side.

Over the years, we participated together in much sin.  Yes, it was fun and exciting.  We drank together, smoked pot together, told stories about various girls to each other, learned to drive the same summer and became local legends.  Lane was more wild than I was, but I took far greater risks.  A problem he had was his fondness for drugs.  I was never into anything like that, other than pot and beer.  Lane like pills and powders, and was once busted with a one gallon bag of cocaine.  He was busted for possessing a machine gun, too.

But he straightened his life out quite a bit, although never an a biblical sense.  He was able to get some good jobs and make good money.  One year I know he cleared $186k, because I worked with him in that software company.  We both did well.  I designed a super-computer to replace a clients CRAY 1, and founded a biometrics company that was eventually traded publicly in NASDAQ.

But as Lane grew older, he started sliding back into his old ways.  He kicked his wife and kids out of home and started using meth with some of the slimiest people imaginable.  The last time I talked to him, which was two years ago, I gave him some tough love regarding his drug use.  That made him very angry with me, and he never spoke to me again.

He died a shriveled up skeleton of a man, alone in a hospital in Houston, TX.  He was 61 years old.

Was he saved?  I think not, because I think he would have reached out to me if he had accepted Yahusha (Jesus to him) as his savior.

But maybe, I hope, he called on the one he would refer to as “Jesus” as he lay in that bed dying.  Maybe he did.  But Lane was exceptionally stubborn and prideful.  So who knows?

Salvation At Death

This bring up a point I want to make regarding Torah, obedience and salvation.

Absolutely Yahuah gave us Torah so that we would know how to express worship to Him in ways that are meaningful to HIM.  Obedience is worship, and as the Scriptures tell us, sin is simply disobedience.  That’s something the Christians tend to reject out of hand, and to their detriment.  But those who accept “Jesus” on their deathbed will certainly be accepted into heaven.  Yahuah is merciful, and these death-bed conversions don’t give the newly saved any time to discover Torah.  These folks will be “the least in the Kingdom of Heaven”.

But we who abide in Torah will be considered “great in the Kingdom of Heaven”.  There are the great, the least, and everyone in between.

The thing to bear in mind is that Yahuah knows everything about us.  He knows our heart, and although many Christians do love Jesus, most of them are under the deception that “grace” removes from them the responsibility to worship Yahuah as He prescribes.  They deny His commands, claiming that the commands are “for the Jews only”.

Obviously, they do not study the Words because Yahuah Himself stated plainly that “there is ONE LAW for both the foreigner and the Hebrew.”  He states that, if the foreigner wishes to worship Him, the foreigner must worship Him exactly as prescribed for the Hebrews.

Those Christians who choose to worship Him yet disobey the very God they claim to love so much will stand before Him in Heaven and accept His right ruling regarding their fate.  If He is truly their “god”, they will seek Truth and walk in The Way, bringing me to my last point.

Abandoning The Christians

As some of you know, I have endeavored for a few years to attend a local Bible church and influence Torah obedience among the fellowship there.  They are really nice, decent people, classically Christian in that they are quite friendly in the church building.  Very chatty and ha ha ha ha at whatever is said in passing conversation.

This past Sun-day, I was in the big adult Sun-day school class, and we had a new teacher.  He was official, hand-picked by the Pastor.  He stood at the lectern with his marked-up and TABBED bible, teaching that Torah was for the Jews.  He spoke of righteousness, faith and belief at length.  I raised my hand at one point, fighting the desire to shout “BLASPHEMER” at him.

He recognized my hand and I asked him to define “Faith”.  He defined faith as “belief”.  So I asked him to define “belief”, and he responded that it is the same as “faith”.  My head was starting to spin.  I replied, rather loudly, a question: “Are you telling me that one word defines the other?”, and he relied “yes”.

I turned to the class and said “This teacher does not even know the meaning of the words he is talking about.  ‘Faith’ requires actions, and those actions are fully described in Torah.  ‘Belief’ is the faithful walk of the obedient.  We are required to live out our faith by worshiping Yahuah according to HIS commands, which He declaeres are FOREVER.”

I’m getting wound up.  My adrenaline is flowing.

“Also, Yahusha (I didn’t want to say ‘Yahusha’, because that confuses the Christians, but it popped out.) said Himself that IF we love Him, we will keep His commands, and THEN His Father in Heaven will love US, and THEN He (Yahusha) will manifest Himself within us.”

I followed that with the part about the foreigner being required by Yahuah to worship Him exactly as He prescribed to the Hebrews in the desert with Moshe.

That pretty much ended Sun-day School.  There was a quick prayer and everyone split, except for one older fellow in a suit, wearing a big cross around his neck on a chain.  He walked right up to my back and started telling me that I didn’t know what I was talking about.

I turned around, asked him his name (Len), shook his hand and said “It that the biggest cross you could find?”

I went out, sat in my customary seat beside the Pastor, and left immediately after the service.  I’m done there.  Listening to some teaching on the youtube channel “Triumph In Truth“, I heard a teaching on being unequally yoked as it applies to those who are Natasarim as they relate to the Christian church, and concluded that there is no way I can go back to that dead little body of the blind.

So don’t you go trying to put new wine into that old skin, brothers and sisters.  The Christians will only hate you for your great faith.  Your faith causes them to tremble and doubt.  Just as the Pharisees had Shaul arrested for being “in a sect called The Way“, so will Christians ultimately turn on you when the Red Dragon comes.

They will never find the narrow path that leads unto Righteousness.  They intentionally deny that path of righteousness, and live in the satanic deception that “Grace” frees them from the responsibility to believe God.

Some Fun Understanding Of Our Relationship With Our Father

Because strait is the gate, and narrow is the way, which leadeth unto life, and few there be that find it. - Matthew 7:14

We tend to doubt that He desires the best for us in our human lives, and we do not believe that His plans are superior to ours most of the time.  We wrestle with Him, wanting what we want and hoping that He plays it our way.

Not 🙂

His way is best, but sometimes it is a bumpy flight.  Gratitude toward Him for whatever the outcome is key.  Trust that He loves you and live in gratitude for whatever rolls your way.  That is Faith.  He will handle things.

Faith, Baby!

As many of you know, I spent the last five weeks in a worst-case world. It involved several of my emotions, and those at the maximum level of performance. Anger, fear and love were all at the boiling point. It was truly terrible.. Sometimes I could only shiver, my whole body literally shaking in these small amplitude tremors, from my neck to my toes.

That is odd, actually. Have you ever experienced that?

But something wonderful happened. I was able to let go of all of it. Yes, it was still quite difficult, quite stressful, uncertain, hostile, sad… but I had a dream 15 years ago, and in that dream there were three little boys walking down a sidewalk in front of a house that was alone on that street. The trees were tall and evergreen, and there was a waterfall in the woods across from the house. A mountainous area, I suppose.

I drove first into the woods for no reason other than curiosity. Nice waterfall, and exit the forest road back onto the road.

Suddenly a rainstorm of biblical proportions struck. My truck was spinning wildly in the storm, and all I could see through the wind shield was water spattering onto it. Nothing but water and wild wind. I wrestled the steering wheel, trying to control my vehicle until a voice within me said “Let go.”

I let go, and instantly the storm stopped, as if it never were. And there in front of me were those three boys.

I knew that they were mine, although at the time I was not married and had no sons.

But I do now, and my sons are the same ages and sizes as the three in the dream. Exactly, down to the hair color and body build. They wore backpacks with earbud wires hanging out, tennis shoes, blue jeans, jackets and caps. The smallest one was in front – and I got to see him from the side. The smallest boy in the dream was identical to my 4 yr old son, Nate.

The point of the dream was this: We must learn to let go, and embrace the love and mercy of Yahuah. Particularly His mercy, which we often forget.

This storm that I just endured is the climax of that dream. The storm began before my first son was born, and lasted until yesterday. 14 years. Terrible storm. Ended.

It ended well. It ended well because of this: I believe that my Father loves me and has the best in mind for me. I believe whatever happens to me is for my good. Therefore, in the climax of the storm, I asked Yahuah to help me believe that, regardless of the outcome, it is His blessing to me and that I be grateful for that outcome.

That is what He did.

I am a fighter. I do love battle. I am aggressive, skilled in multiple forms of combat, and just as Daud cut off the head of the giant, so do I finish my opponents – decisively and and with prejudice.

But Yahuah restricts me in those things, and I am glad. Nonetheless, in this storm that passed, I had not yet begun to fight when it ended. Yes, I was engaged in the conflict but I had not even entered my powerband when it was over. Finished.

And that is where I had to let go. I could not continue the fight, and my primary weapons remained undeployed.

Disappointing, but the Will of Yahuah is merciful, and for His mercy I am exceedingly glad.

So today, the first day after the end of the storm, I find that my heart is light. Joy resides in me. Gladness exudes from me. I have peace, and real peace, for the first time in years.

Next time you face a difficult trial, let it go. Trust that Yahuah actually loves you, and that He is actually merciful and not a liar. Trust that, no matter what the outcome, He has the best in mind for you and nothing can overcome that. Nothing does overcome His Will, but I have learned from experience that we personally have outcomes and objectives that we personally want, and if we are stopped by some other person or thing, we get angry, frustrated and start praying “oh god, please help me achieve/obtain/get/win/escape/insert-verb-here”.

Well, if its not His Will, you will not receive it. So we must believe in our FAITH. Faith is exhibited by OBEDIENCE. Obedience means yes, we TRUST that HE LOVES us and is MERCIFUL.

Therefore, because Yahuah wants good for us, He will steer us toward GOOD, and we will get there IFwe DO NOT resist whatever He is doing by demanding that we want what we want. You know, forcing the situation. Being angry and then sinning in your anger by operating outside of TRUST, FAITH, LOVE and MERCY to and from GOD.

In all of our conflicts throughout life, He is with you if you are His child. He steers us and guides us but most of the time we simply demand whatsoever we demand, operating outside of His desire for us.

If you have lived long enough, you realized long ago that you create nearly all of your own problems.

Now you know why 🙂

Daddy loves you. Don’t argue with Him and do trust that He keeps His Word. That trust is obedience and it is credited to you as RIGHTEOUSNESS, which is very important for the outcome of your battles.

 

Loving Puts A Shine On Your Soul

Remember when you first started using email, and sometimes you would hit the SEND key before you edited your fresh composition?  Or maybe you wrote a real payback-is-hell email to your boss or wife or husband or friend, and it was mostly an exercise of “Oh I wish I could send this”, and you sent it?

I did that two minutes ago.

Not an email but a posting that went out to a whole bunch of subscribers.  It is a piece about fidelity, respect, obedience from wives to husbands.  I have some wonderful women who subscribe to me and I do try to be sensitive to “feelings”.

Nonetheless, Yahuah is no respector of persons, so neither should we be.  And wrong is wrong.  Sin is sin and we all need to love more faithfully.

I’d like to speak to Mr., now.  Husband, father, son – the man.  Commanded to love his wife repeatedly by Yahuah, what does that tell us about men?

That we need to be reminded a lot?  That it is a command and not an option?  Sure, yes, all of that.  But the main takeaway from all those “Thou shalt love..” is this: Love is a decision.

Men choose to love or not to love.  We don’t get a “feeling”, and it isn’t chemistry.  It is a decision, like whether or not to mow the lawn, wash the dog, read the Word or take a shower.  Love is the end result of “I will”.

I like that.

Choosing to love can be a very difficult choice.  Loving an unloveble woman can be quite difficult, as one might imagine.  Unlovable means just that: not lovable.  Some women make it extremely difficult for a man to love them, and then they wonder why they are not loved.

Make it easier to love you, ladies.  If you need some pointers, read this.

A disrespectful wife is the most difficult woman to love, brother.  They are contemptous, loud, bossy, arrogant, deceitful and in general not worth having around.

Proverbs speaks to this several times, citing the fact that it is better to live in the corner of a roof than in a fine home with a contentious woman.  Or that it is better to have a little bit in peace than a lot of stuff in strife.

That said, if you are married, and if your wife does all that stuff and you are miserable, guess what?  Yahuah never promised you a rose garden.  He never said you would have Miss Manners for a wife, or that your wife would not be a closet man-hater.  You married her and now you get to start the long march.

But you can do it.

Love is simply love.  It is not slavery, or some way to break your will.  You can love your wife very deeply but never do the fawning roses and chocolates and the “yes, dears” and the “doing whatever she wants because that what she wants to do” thing.

You can love her just fine while watching the Superbowl with a room full of friends.

You can love her just fine while her mother complains about you behind your back, and your wife says “mommy, you are so smart”.  Faithful wives are hard to come by.

But you can still love her, and love her deeply.

Love does not require you to check your self-respect at the door.  You still get to be all the man that you can muster.  Maintain your self-respect, maintain your dignity.  Do things that you know are good for you, and help your wife when she needs help.  If she asks for help, help her.  Be polite to her.  Treat her with respect because when you are disrespectful to anyone, you are disrespectful to yourself.

When she does things that confound you with illogical thought processes, love her anyway.  Let it go.  It is not love to go about correcting and perfecting her.  She gets to live her life, in large part, as she see’s fit.  As long is she plays within the parameters of the Word, she is good to go.  Let her roll her way.  Don’t be afraid that, if she does some things her way, that you will be less a man.

A strong man will give his wife all the latitude she needs.  Unless it is sin, encourage her in her endeavors.  That is love.

You can try a good many things to build your relationship with her, but again, if she is a modern man-hating type of woman, then she certainly is not easy to love.

Just as some men are simply wicked, dead soul types, selfish to the core and interested only in their own personal comfort, many women are exactly the same.  You might be married to one and guess what?  She just might burn in hell for her rejection of Yahuah, and you might be married to her until the day one of you dies.

If that is your situation, you can still love her.  She might complain first thing every morning and throughout the day for the remaining 90,000+ days of her bitter life, and that might be one of the most profound blessings you will receive from Yahuah.

If this is your life, rejoice because you get to submit to Yahuah out of respect to Him.  He says “love”, she says “beat it” and there you are, torn between your desire to honor Yahuah or to call down sulfur upon your once-upon-a-time-a-long-time-ago delightful bride.

But He is watching.

He is mindful of your desire to obey Him.  He knows that you want to love her as He commands, and He does see everything you do.  Keep it up.  Live your life.  Offer to read the Word with her.  Keep that door open, always.  Yes, it might be like studying the Word with Louis Farrakhan, but the Word will do its job, and in time, if she is willing, her heart will open.

Some women have been deeply hurt by men.  So badly wounded that they are unable to trust even their husband.  They marry, hoping that their love or fondness or whatever is running through their mind for the guy they marry will transform them/her into the happy, trusting girl that she was before evil came.

That’s where you can be a real blessing to her, because although you might never know about her wound, if you can win her trust, you can win her heart.

You win that trust by loving, and it is a richly sacrificial love that you bring to the table, too.  You are going to take some licks from her as she tests you.  She wants to know where your breaking point is because she is looking for that moment where she can say “Aha!  You are all the same”.

But if you love her, your desire is Yahuah and not her.  She will find you very hard to antagonize.

There are no guarantees except for this one: If you choose to love her in spite of her utter disdain for gracefulness and respect to you, you will become a better man.  You are not some door mat or whipping post.  No need to argue or even have discussions with an overtly hostile woman.  Pointless.  Do love, do help, but go about your life taking care of your business, biding your time, and waiting for Yahuah.

He’s patient with us, and we are the most faithless creatures he made.

 

Knock Knock! “Who’s There?” :)

05:49 AM, Friday.  On the headphones is the band Imagine Dragons, an Indi Rock band that I have grown quite fond of.  The album is EVOLVE, and the music is great.  Just fantastic, and I like it at about 50 percent volume.  Louder would be just fine for me, but not for my ears.

The particular tune playing as I start this is the song “Rise Up”.

I encourage you to read and study the Word of Yahuah.  Trust Him, lean on Him, and never try to “figure Him out”, because you can’t.  No one can.  Paul tells us that Yahuah is “inscrutable”, and that means “you cannot figure Him out”. Continue reading “Knock Knock! “Who’s There?” :)”

Is The Burning Desire For Truth Missing From You?

I’ve not written much in the last two months, due primarily to the holidays and the “flu” in my family.  I personally doubt that we experienced the “flu”, and am inclined to believe that we were sprayed down by chemicals spewing from the nozzles on those jets we see overhead constantly.  Sometimes the chemtrail production is so intense that I can taste the stuff in my mouth, and choke on it.

Today I want to discuss a very important matter – My Torah Notes – The Truth.  I continually get questions from folks who clearly are not reading the notes.  That proves only one thing – many people simply refuse to discover the Truth, because they willfully choose to live in rebellion.  They argue endlessly against the very words from the mouth of GOD Yahuah Himself.    They cite all the TV preachers who condemn the “Law” and who teach “grace”.  Do not be one of those people, or you will likely burn in hell along side them.

Not to, you know, be blunt or anything.

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“He’s Not Like Us” Thus The Righteous Perish

Dear Brothers and Sisters, this is my first communication since the refining of my subscriber database; the separation of the wheat from the tares. Yahuah did call me out of the world, very powerfully.  He did radically transform me from hating Him to yearning to be with Him. As one “christian” leader in my local church commented privately to a mutual and respected friend,  “He (referring to me) is not like us.” In the subsequent two years since that comment was made, his actions proved repeatedly that he is false to me; not my friend and not my brother.

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Wonderful Video On The Commands Of Yahuah

This is a good video presentation on the obedience to the commands of Yahuah.  The one glaring omission is defining “sin” for people, which in 1 John 3:4 is stated “sin is transgression (violation) of the law.”

That one simple scripture is a vital key to understanding that the things we consider normal and healthy, such as celebrating Christmas as the birthday of Yahusha or considering Sunday to be the Sabbath day, are in fact sin.  Significant sin because we are mixing the holy with the profane, which is another command.

Ezekiel 44:23 – “And they shall teach my people the difference between the holy and profane, and cause them to discern between the unclean and the clean.”

That which is unclean is unholy, and if it is unclean, we are not do do it.  The profane is that which desecrates the holy, or which shows contempt to Yahuah.

Definition of profane

profaned; profaning

transitive verb
1 : to treat (something sacred) with abuse, irreverence, or contempt : desecrate

 

So you see, everything of Yahuah is holy and is to be treated reverentially.  Nothing of the world is holy, and is never to be mixed with that which is holy or clean.

Two Men, One Dead For One Hour and 45 Minutes, the Other in a Vision For 23 Minutes. Heaven and Hell.

Prophecy, visions, dreams and experiences with the divine are wonderful when they ring true. This first speaker experienced a medically documented death of one hour and 45 minutes. When his body died, he began his trip to heaven where he experienced things that are so beautiful, words cannot express them. As in all “prophecies” or death experiences, I start out skeptical and if the Holy Spirit within me pushes against the prophecy, I turn away from it.

This man tells a story that rings true, and it has elements very similar to another death experience I heard a few months ago. In short, I believe this man, and his demeanor, his humility and his obvious gentle spirit lend strong credibility to his experience. I urge you to watch this entirely so you will benefit from the rich blessing in it, if you will receive it.

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How Yahusha Set The Obedient Free From The Requirement of Stoning

When studying the commands of Yahuah, one comes across commands that seem uniquely difficult to obey.  Specifically, I speak of the commands to stone certain people to death.

These are capital offenses.  Yahuah seems stern and even evil in these commands, but He is not evil in any way.  His commands preserve us.  His commands give us strength, and make us a more righteous people.

The world, governed by the satan, demands that we violate every command of Yahuah.  The world hates the obedient.  The obedient represent righteousness, and the obedient are a truly set-apart, holy people.

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