Faith, Baby!

As many of you know, I spent the last five weeks in a worst-case world. It involved several of my emotions, and those at the maximum level of performance. Anger, fear and love were all at the boiling point. It was truly terrible.. Sometimes I could only shiver, my whole body literally shaking in these small amplitude tremors, from my neck to my toes.

That is odd, actually. Have you ever experienced that?

But something wonderful happened. I was able to let go of all of it. Yes, it was still quite difficult, quite stressful, uncertain, hostile, sad… but I had a dream 15 years ago, and in that dream there were three little boys walking down a sidewalk in front of a house that was alone on that street. The trees were tall and evergreen, and there was a waterfall in the woods across from the house. A mountainous area, I suppose.

I drove first into the woods for no reason other than curiosity. Nice waterfall, and exit the forest road back onto the road.

Suddenly a rainstorm of biblical proportions struck. My truck was spinning wildly in the storm, and all I could see through the wind shield was water spattering onto it. Nothing but water and wild wind. I wrestled the steering wheel, trying to control my vehicle until a voice within me said “Let go.”

I let go, and instantly the storm stopped, as if it never were. And there in front of me were those three boys.

I knew that they were mine, although at the time I was not married and had no sons.

But I do now, and my sons are the same ages and sizes as the three in the dream. Exactly, down to the hair color and body build. They wore backpacks with earbud wires hanging out, tennis shoes, blue jeans, jackets and caps. The smallest one was in front – and I got to see him from the side. The smallest boy in the dream was identical to my 4 yr old son, Nate.

The point of the dream was this: We must learn to let go, and embrace the love and mercy of Yahuah. Particularly His mercy, which we often forget.

This storm that I just endured is the climax of that dream. The storm began before my first son was born, and lasted until yesterday. 14 years. Terrible storm. Ended.

It ended well. It ended well because of this: I believe that my Father loves me and has the best in mind for me. I believe whatever happens to me is for my good. Therefore, in the climax of the storm, I asked Yahuah to help me believe that, regardless of the outcome, it is His blessing to me and that I be grateful for that outcome.

That is what He did.

I am a fighter. I do love battle. I am aggressive, skilled in multiple forms of combat, and just as Daud cut off the head of the giant, so do I finish my opponents – decisively and and with prejudice.

But Yahuah restricts me in those things, and I am glad. Nonetheless, in this storm that passed, I had not yet begun to fight when it ended. Yes, I was engaged in the conflict but I had not even entered my powerband when it was over. Finished.

And that is where I had to let go. I could not continue the fight, and my primary weapons remained undeployed.

Disappointing, but the Will of Yahuah is merciful, and for His mercy I am exceedingly glad.

So today, the first day after the end of the storm, I find that my heart is light. Joy resides in me. Gladness exudes from me. I have peace, and real peace, for the first time in years.

Next time you face a difficult trial, let it go. Trust that Yahuah actually loves you, and that He is actually merciful and not a liar. Trust that, no matter what the outcome, He has the best in mind for you and nothing can overcome that. Nothing does overcome His Will, but I have learned from experience that we personally have outcomes and objectives that we personally want, and if we are stopped by some other person or thing, we get angry, frustrated and start praying “oh god, please help me achieve/obtain/get/win/escape/insert-verb-here”.

Well, if its not His Will, you will not receive it. So we must believe in our FAITH. Faith is exhibited by OBEDIENCE. Obedience means yes, we TRUST that HE LOVES us and is MERCIFUL.

Therefore, because Yahuah wants good for us, He will steer us toward GOOD, and we will get there IFwe DO NOT resist whatever He is doing by demanding that we want what we want. You know, forcing the situation. Being angry and then sinning in your anger by operating outside of TRUST, FAITH, LOVE and MERCY to and from GOD.

In all of our conflicts throughout life, He is with you if you are His child. He steers us and guides us but most of the time we simply demand whatsoever we demand, operating outside of His desire for us.

If you have lived long enough, you realized long ago that you create nearly all of your own problems.

Now you know why 🙂

Daddy loves you. Don’t argue with Him and do trust that He keeps His Word. That trust is obedience and it is credited to you as RIGHTEOUSNESS, which is very important for the outcome of your battles.