I am going through a time of sorrows, and am asking for prayers from you. There are times like these in the lives of many, when despair and hopelessness swallow up our souls, leaving us hungry for the mercy of death. The long sleep until resurrection; the ascension to glory and to true peace.
But our appointed time will come on schedule, and we are called to walk in the Way regardless of any obstacle, or sorrow. In our obedience, hope rises. In obedience, righteousness gains possession of our heart. In our righteousness, weak though we are, courage grows. We know that even though we are dying inside, that Yahuah is with us, that He sent His Spirit to dwell within us and to teach us.
It is the literal indwelling of the spirit of Yahuah that keeps us vibrant and alive in the darkest of times. Death has no dominion over us, nor does despair.
Yes, we will have minutes or hours or days of terrible gloom or despair. Those things do come to all, but when we call out to Yahuah, He hears us. The most incredible thing is that He does not relieve us of all these trials, but that He walks with us, comforts us through the trials, and emerges into the rich victory of joy at the end of the trial.
These most dreadful of times come to each of us, and even if we have to walk in the shadow of death for a long time, when we maintain our faith, we emerge both victorious and much stronger.
The psalm of Daud ( “David” for most folks 🙂 ) below perfectly sums up my state of mind. I experience despair, encouragement, yearning for death, sadness, confidence and assurance all multiple times in the same day. Sometimes I cannot breathe due to the immense pressure I feel on me.
Yet Yahuah holds me up. In fact, I do know that, because of His spirit living inside me, I can endure all things. If He takes everything from me, then all the more I will be able to serve His Word. And maybe that is His plan – to strip me of everything so that I might be fully His. Certainly I owe it to Him. And what a price to pay for the privilege of service!
Remember whan Daud said about paying a high price to worship Yahuah?
1 Chronicles 21:24
“No,” replied King David, “I insist on paying the full price, for I will not take for the LORD what belongs to you or offer burnt offerings that cost me nothing.”
A high price paid is an honorable and worthy fee for the privilege of serving Him unencumbered, and in peace. All things in this world are transient and fleeting. We all struggle to work out our salvation, and, as Solomon teaches in 7:28, exceedingly few are upright.
Will it be worth it? Absolutely, for our treasure is not in this world, but in Heaven. There is no greater call on earth among men than the call to serve Yahuah with all heart, all mind and all soul.
And now, my brother Daud speaks –
“I cry aloud to the Lord;
I lift up my voice to the Lord for mercy.
2 I pour out before him my complaint;
before him I tell my trouble.
3 When my spirit grows faint within me,
it is you who watch over my way.
In the path where I walk
people have hidden a snare for me.
4 Look and see, there is no one at my right hand;
no one is concerned for me.
I have no refuge;
no one cares for my life.
5 I cry to you, Lord;
I say, “You are my refuge,
my portion in the land of the living.”
6 Listen to my cry,
for I am in desperate need;
rescue me from those who pursue me,
for they are too strong for me.
7 Set me free from my prison,
that I may praise your name.
Then the righteous will gather about me
because of your goodness to me.