Maybe I will get into the particulars of my sorrow soon, but maybe not. As some of you know, I am a very private person and and tend to keep things to myself. Yet I publish a lot because there are others like me who need to know that the real hope is in Yahuah and in Him alone.
Yesterday my despair was so pervasive that I wanted to die. I prayed to my Father to close my book. I asked Him to remove me from here. I hurt where no pain originates. My sorrow drowned me in some kind of hopelessness that cannot be defeated. It is this kind of sorrow which calls for death; Not to hurt others but simply to end the sorrow and the grieving.
But today is a new day. My sorrow is conquered and my grieving is vanquished. I celebrate and am motivated, because my good Father loves me. As Keith Green once sang, I “answered the call”.
Yahuah puts us into painful situations on purpose. Sorrow is designed for us. Grieving is baked right into the cake. We MUST experience these things in order to grow into the warriors He seeks.
Today, I stand. My name, “Jerry Davis” does in fact mean “Warrior son of David”. “Jerry” is from the German ‘Gerald’ which means warrior or spear warrior. “Davis” is a British figurative idiom or translation of my South Wales ancestors name, which means ‘Son of David’ or ‘Sons of David’. South Wales was almost entirely Jewish several hundred years ago. There were synagogues all over the place. Eventually the British government decided to run the Jews out and they started migrating to America. My grandfathers came to America from Wales during that time. They were generally named after Hebrew prophets.
This podcast is actually two separate podcasts. Yesterday I was quite despondent and that recording is first, followed by the recording I made this morning. The end of yesterdays podcast is around 22:40.
Psalm 118 (Berean Study Bible)
1 Give thanks to the LORD, for He is good;
His loving devotion endures forever.
2 Let Israel say, “His loving devotion endures forever.”
3 Let the house of Aaron say, “His loving devotion endures forever.”
4 Let those who fear the LORD say, “His loving devotion endures forever.”
5 In my distress I called to the LORD, and He answered and set me free.
6 The LORD is on my side; I will not be afraid. What can man do to me?
7 The LORD is on my side; He is my helper. Therefore I will look in triumph on those who hate me.
8 It is better to take refuge in the LORD than to trust in man.
9 It is better to take refuge in the LORD than to trust in princes.
10 All the nations surrounded me, but in the name of the LORD I cut them off.
11 They surrounded me on every side, but in the name of the LORD I cut them off.
12 They swarmed around me like bees, but they were extinguished like burning thorns; in the name of the LORD I cut them off.
13 I was pushed so hard I was falling, but the LORD helped me.
14 The LORD is my strength and my song, and He has become my salvation.
15 Shouts of joy and salvation resound in the tents of the righteous:
“The right hand of the LORD performs with valor!
16 The right hand of the LORD is exalted! The right hand of the LORD performs with valor!”
17 I will not die, but I will live and proclaim what the LORD has done.
18 The LORD disciplined me severely, but He has not given me over to death.
19 Open to me the gates of righteousness, that I may enter and give thanks to the LORD.
20 This is the gate of the LORD; the righteous shall enter through it.
21 I will give You thanks, for You have answered me, and You have become my salvation.
22 The stone the builders rejected has become the cornerstone
23 This is from the LORD, and it is marvelous in our eyes
24 This is the day that the LORD has made; we will rejoice and be glad in it.
25 O LORD, save us, we pray. We beseech You, O LORD, cause us to prosper!
26 Blessed is he who comes in the name of the LORD From the house of the LORD we bless you.
27 The LORD is God; He has made His light to shine upon us.
Bind the festal sacrifice with cords to the horns of the altar.
28 You are my God, and I will give You thanks. You are my God, and I will exalt You.
29 Give thanks to the LORD, for He is good; His loving devotion endures forever.
Stand in faith and hold on forever. – Jerry