Do you find yourself walking alone in the dark? Does it seem some days that the Spirit of Truth left you? That there is no “God”, that He has abandoned you, or that you have abandoned Him? In these present days, that experience is increasingly common.
How many prayers are enough? When does the “merciful”, “loving”, ‘eager to forgive’, “all knowing” ALAH restore ? When does He imbue peace upon a troubled one? Who prayed for me when I was marked? When I was turned? Perhaps my mother. Possibly my dad. Yes, certainly my mother, who prayed for me all my life. I have never heard of my dad praying for me, and there is no one else who prays for me on a consistent basis.
Yet most of us here do pray for some people on a consistent basis. I know so many here who live difficult, painful, lonely lives, all while calling ceaselessly on ALAH, The I AM, GOD for relief, only to be turned away. Why is this?
I know that Yahuah saved me. He proactively acted in magnificent ways to capture me, and He did. What He did to pull me from death is absolutely stunning. He did it. He did it when I was not calling on His name. He did it when I had very little interest in Him, no knowledge of Him, and He did it when I hated Him.
Yet I see many who spend hours every week in prayer that remains unanswered. Why is this?
He answers in my heart this very moment: “I will save whom I will save”.
His Words prove this.
Rom 9:14 What then shall we say? Is there not unrighteousness with God? Let it not be!
Rom 9:15 For He said to Moses, “I will have mercy on whomever I will have mercy, and I will pity whomever I will pity.” Ex. 33:19
Rom 9:16 So, then, it is not of the one willing, nor of the one running, but of the One showing mercy, of God.
Rom 9:17 For the Scripture says to Pharaoh, “For this very thing I raised you up, so that I might display My power in you, and so that My name might be publicized in all the earth.” Ex. 9:16
Rom 9:18 So, then, to whom He desires, He shows mercy. And to whom He desires, He hardens.
Rom 9:19 You will then say to me, Why does He yet find fault? For who has resisted His will?
Rom 9:20 Yes, rather, O man, who are you answering against God? Shall the thing formed say to the One forming it, Why did You make me like this? Isa. 29:16
Rom 9:21 Or does not the potter have authority over the clay, out of the one lump to make one vessel to honor, and one to dishonor? Jer. 18:6
So then, do we pray for people? Do we move Yahuah to extend His mercy to the lost, to the brother who sins? Do we?
Moshe asked Yahuah not to exterminate the wandering Hebrews, and Yahuah heard him and let them live their lives out. Was 40 years in the wilderness, moving constantly and never having a home – was that mercy, or was it a rolling prison?
I find myself walking in a dark place. I am like one alone on a great plain, with mountains only in the far distance. The wind blows, not forcefully but almost continuously. The loneliness is pressing on me, but I have lived with it for so many years now that I find it both painful and comforting. The familiarity of solitude.
I know why. It is because in my solitude I can ponder the Truth. I can ask of my Yahuah and He answers me. He is the maker and I am the made. Yet He knows me and cares for me. He gives me a marvelous and unique life. I get physically damaged, and I heal. My heart breaks, and still loves. I fear nothing, and nothing is exactly what I fear. Not to say that I do not fear, but that which I do fear is nothing.
He calls me, and maybe you, to simply walk with Him in belief that He knows best. I do not understand this Way, because when I call on Him, He answers. And when I call again, He is silent. He gives me strong arms and a keen mind, and asks me to wait. I do not understand His ways. But this I do know – He IS. He is the coolest entity that exists. He is the wisest, and impossible to deceive. He knows every move on every chessboard and can create wins from losses in the twinkling of an eye. He is ALAH. The Mighty One. He reigns complete.
Imagine that the universe is “God”. The entire universe, as far as it extends in every direction – this is GOD. Now imagine that you, your life, your hopes, your dreams, your every movement, every thought that you have in your own mind, all of everything – every leaf, ant, bomb, water droplet, soundwave, motion – all of it are but thoughts in the mind of Yahuah, this universe which created us and will erase all we see and know very soon.
It will be erased. He will do it again. Others will come who will have these very same thoughts. They will ponder these same words. They will pray the same prayers, and they will walk in the same darkness, and for those whom He chooses, walk in His light.
It is His story. He is The GOD.
Sometimes it is that we are unable to listen or it is not time to act. The Scripture you quote Jerry Exodus 9:16 is what is so important for when our Father’s name is made known and the people living call on his name and call for help he will answer. But as we know we have been born into a world where the truth cannot be heard for the people shut their eyes and ears to truth. Only truth will set humanity free John 8:32. Today I have been asking who will listen. I was told it is someone who has written a book but it hasn’t sold well. But when that person listens to what I have been given as a testimony and it is proven to be true deliverance will come. I don’t know how this can happen. I told you how my left eye has occlusions and it weakens my other also. I think the internet makes that worse. I thank you that you listen to what I write Jerry. Whenever… Read more »
Hi June. Good to hear from you again. As for the guy who was overtly hostile toward you, forget him. Knock the dust from your sandals. You are welcome here and I always read your letters and comments.
Hi Brother, you know I sometimes feel like I am not good enough for God. I believe and I do pray and ask for forgiveness, but I find myself doubting my worthiness sometimes. I know people, some family members, who scoff and say there is no God. I know they’re misguided by some life event or circumstance that affected them and caused them to doubt their faith. I never doubt the existence of God, and I guess I’ll find a way to show Him I am worthy. Nowadays I tend to be suspicious of people and I am prepared to defend my family with violence if necessary. There was a murder down the street from us at a convenience store last week. A place I have taken my family to get gas now doesn’t seem safe, less than a quarter of a mile away from our house. Is it wrong for me to be so prepared to take another person’s life?
Hey buddy. I was just at my computer and thinking of you. Cool. Now let me read your comment… Brother, I OPEN carry a Springfield Armory XD-m9mm Compact with a 21-round magazine loaded with Sig hollow points in a Blackhawk Omnivore 2nd Stage retention holster to accommodate a TLR-1 light, mounted forward of the trigger guard. That’s my church gun. As for the rest, 🙂 No comment. But I am well prepared. It would be hard so shoot a person, that’s for sure. We just have to make sure that if we do shoot another person, or kill them some other way, that its a legitimate kill. I don’t want to do it. I don’t like to think about it but these days, we have to think about it. I do have Texas Law Shield shooters liability insurance. You need to get that if you don’t have it, and it is not expensive. Covers you in the event you lawfully pop a bad guy. The survivors always sue and this takes care of that. My… Read more »
Jerry, I pray your feet n legs are speeding up on healing so that soon enough you will be going strong again 😉 I often find it difficult to digest all the words on your website which has developed into a heartfelt bond with me now for almost 1,5 years! Sometimes, it just overpowers me shoveling the Truth inside my aching belly…:-) I really want to get to know sooner or later though my behaviour proofed a little shaky and contradictory. Business regarding my daily routine got rough lately because I had much stress with my personal assistants which are German state financed home care nurses I carry around 24/7 since I require much physical help for living independently in my own apartment in Schweinfurt, Bavaria (used to live for 10 years in Regensburg where I went unsuccessfully to medical school dropping out in late 2o16). Right now (2 AM) my mother is with me supporting me as an assistant of mine quit his job unexpectedly so my mom rescued me living with me already… Read more »
Andreas, you have a difficult path to follow, but your faithful service to Yahuah is noted in heaven, and you will be greatly rewarded for your walking in the Way. The difficulties of this life pass away soon enough. Just as I cannot control my sons and call them into Righteousness, so you cannot control your body. The disappointment, the frustration, the sorrows that seem to extend into infinity – all of those things will pass for us and will never be remembered again. I am truly sorry that you are so extraordinarily wounded, Andreas, and cannot imagine what a struggle living must be for you. But your mind is good, and that’s what really counts. I’ve been watching a guy names Jordan Peterson the last couple of weeks. You might be interested in how he thinks. A truly gifted man with a way of cutting to the correct point that is powerful. As for why I declined a very unique opportunity with the Army – it was because I did not want to kill… Read more »
Thank you for your truthful and kind answer, Jerry.
Jordan P. I happen to know already since a couple of years ago my brother who’s a psychologist also like Dr Peterson, recommended him to me. I find it funny how we always tend to gravitate towards those folk who teach us new insights! In case of Dr Peterson, he’s an language-obsessed intellectuals of a classical kind! That’s why, for me I’m more into you (Texan Cowboy-style SoB American Badass gun swinging Jack of all trade survivalist Dude) or Mr ‘Shrek’ McPhee the walking D@lta Force commando funny joke swingin’ Yoda-style kind of Buttkickin Re US Army Sergeant Master instructor 😉
By the way, if you’re online and feeling like it, we could do a short skype talk since I have bravely overcome my shyness of talking with you.
I promise to be nice to you Mister Davis, SIR!
Yeah, I saw that this afternoon. There was massive GPS blocking on the ocean off the coast of Lebanon. We might be about to take a big, maybe nuclear, hit. Yet Yahuah is still True! He rules all things. We have only joy to look forward, and are without fear. I know Him and He knows me. He knows you too, Andreas. You will be a lion in the kingdom of Truth, and I will roar with you! We will jump with great joy and never cease in our rejoicing. We will explore the Kingdom of Yahuah with His blessing, and never tire of its splendor. And we will radiate glory dear brother. Light will emanate from us as if we were golden lamps. We will be safe then, and home. We will be loved and we will give love. We will never want for anything and we will be willing to give all we have to anyone who asks, because we will be complete in Him. Our day is coming, brother. It grows nearer… Read more »
Thank you dear Jerry.
Please be safe these coming days. I will pray for you and your sons, daughter and family.
Talk to you soon 😉 Just propose date and time.
Good to hear from you, brother. I am waiting for my Concealed Carry Permit but I carry a Taurus 357 with me and have it in my car wherever I go. I prefer a revolver nowadays for my personal carry. I don’t want to have to deal with failure to feed, safety on/off, or any other auto-pistol malfunctions. When I pull my wheel gun I know it’s going to shoot. It’s what I train with, along with my 1911 .45, just like we shot in MP School. I scored a near-perfect score on my Concealed Carry qualification. I shot the qual with my new Taurus 38 snubby right out of the box, having never shot it before. I think I put one of my first shots low dropping two points. All the rest of my shots were in the kill zone. Having spent 22 years as a Marine, my ability with a weapon is not a question. I guess me being out of the Corps for almost 25 years now, I have grown comfortable not… Read more »
Great story, man. Excellent. I like revolvers, too, but love the 21 rounds of 9mm hollow points in my XD-m and 21 more only 2 seconds away. I do like .38’s. Meredith (former wife, still close) has a Smith/Wesson Airweight .38 that I like a lot. No trigger, all DA. But uncanny aim. Plus, a .38 Special is plenty to stop a fight. It’s awesome that you got to do some armed duty off-post, and Dan Wesson makes some good firearms. You do know that Texas is a Constitutional Carry state, right? No permission required, but I think its a good idea to get the permit, because that permit shows that there was a pretty good background check on you and cops like to see that. And it speaks to your character and responsibility if you ever have to go to court for a shooting. Ken, make sure you get shooters liability insurance. Covers your legal expenses if you are sued after a legitimate shooting. Texas Law Shield is the company I use. I had… Read more »
Yeah, what am I thinking, I’m going to be 65. I must be like my Dad, in his old age he kept saying he was one year older than he really was. I guess I’ve been thinking about being 65 so much I convinced myself I was already. When did you break your foot? I hope it’s healing up alright. I have to get my Wide Glide in the shop to replace the fuel check valve. It started leaking so I had to drain the tank. I am looking at getting a 50 State and all US Territories Concealed Carry permit through the Federal Gov’t. You should be able to get one too, being a former MP. Check leosaonline.com
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Cool beans, brother. I think I will do the leosaonline deal. Looks good.
We should ask Yahuah cover those who have ears and not hear only He can awaken those and reveal all lies and deception.
I agree with that. He leads us to Truth. The scripture says “They did not receive the love of the Truth” when describing the lost. That pretty well sums up the people I know who reject Jesus. They do not have any interest in the truth, and will believe whichever lies that they like the most.