Do you find yourself walking alone in the dark? Does it seem some days that the Spirit of Truth left you? That there is no “God”, that He has abandoned you, or that you have abandoned Him? In these present days, that experience is increasingly common.
How many prayers are enough? When does the “merciful”, “loving”, ‘eager to forgive’, “all knowing” ALAH restore ? When does He imbue peace upon a troubled one? Who prayed for me when I was marked? When I was turned? Perhaps my mother. Possibly my dad. Yes, certainly my mother, who prayed for me all my life. I have never heard of my dad praying for me, and there is no one else who prays for me on a consistent basis.
Yet most of us here do pray for some people on a consistent basis. I know so many here who live difficult, painful, lonely lives, all while calling ceaselessly on ALAH, The I AM, GOD for relief, only to be turned away. Why is this?
I know that Yahuah saved me. He proactively acted in magnificent ways to capture me, and He did. What He did to pull me from death is absolutely stunning. He did it. He did it when I was not calling on His name. He did it when I had very little interest in Him, no knowledge of Him, and He did it when I hated Him.
Yet I see many who spend hours every week in prayer that remains unanswered. Why is this?
He answers in my heart this very moment: “I will save whom I will save”.
His Words prove this.
Rom 9:14 What then shall we say? Is there not unrighteousness with God? Let it not be!
Rom 9:15 For He said to Moses, “I will have mercy on whomever I will have mercy, and I will pity whomever I will pity.” Ex. 33:19
Rom 9:16 So, then, it is not of the one willing, nor of the one running, but of the One showing mercy, of God.
Rom 9:17 For the Scripture says to Pharaoh, “For this very thing I raised you up, so that I might display My power in you, and so that My name might be publicized in all the earth.” Ex. 9:16
Rom 9:18 So, then, to whom He desires, He shows mercy. And to whom He desires, He hardens.
Rom 9:19 You will then say to me, Why does He yet find fault? For who has resisted His will?
Rom 9:20 Yes, rather, O man, who are you answering against God? Shall the thing formed say to the One forming it, Why did You make me like this? Isa. 29:16
Rom 9:21 Or does not the potter have authority over the clay, out of the one lump to make one vessel to honor, and one to dishonor? Jer. 18:6
So then, do we pray for people? Do we move Yahuah to extend His mercy to the lost, to the brother who sins? Do we?
Moshe asked Yahuah not to exterminate the wandering Hebrews, and Yahuah heard him and let them live their lives out. Was 40 years in the wilderness, moving constantly and never having a home – was that mercy, or was it a rolling prison?
I find myself walking in a dark place. I am like one alone on a great plain, with mountains only in the far distance. The wind blows, not forcefully but almost continuously. The loneliness is pressing on me, but I have lived with it for so many years now that I find it both painful and comforting. The familiarity of solitude.
I know why. It is because in my solitude I can ponder the Truth. I can ask of my Yahuah and He answers me. He is the maker and I am the made. Yet He knows me and cares for me. He gives me a marvelous and unique life. I get physically damaged, and I heal. My heart breaks, and still loves. I fear nothing, and nothing is exactly what I fear. Not to say that I do not fear, but that which I do fear is nothing.
He calls me, and maybe you, to simply walk with Him in belief that He knows best. I do not understand this Way, because when I call on Him, He answers. And when I call again, He is silent. He gives me strong arms and a keen mind, and asks me to wait. I do not understand His ways. But this I do know – He IS. He is the coolest entity that exists. He is the wisest, and impossible to deceive. He knows every move on every chessboard and can create wins from losses in the twinkling of an eye. He is ALAH. The Mighty One. He reigns complete.
Imagine that the universe is “God”. The entire universe, as far as it extends in every direction – this is GOD. Now imagine that you, your life, your hopes, your dreams, your every movement, every thought that you have in your own mind, all of everything – every leaf, ant, bomb, water droplet, soundwave, motion – all of it are but thoughts in the mind of Yahuah, this universe which created us and will erase all we see and know very soon.
It will be erased. He will do it again. Others will come who will have these very same thoughts. They will ponder these same words. They will pray the same prayers, and they will walk in the same darkness, and for those whom He chooses, walk in His light.
It is His story. He is The GOD.